JiggyAndTheBeanstalk

oh and what do i do now.
summers almost at the corner and ive still havent done anything significant
my old achievements and accomplishments feels insignificant, there is more i can do
and i have to stop relaxing.

- things ive been doing recently, drinking lots of pain killers, haha
- sketching the human anatomy, *ive always sketched scenes and landscapes
to my amusement, i found sketching the human body in various forms and whateverness stimulating!
- tuned up my guitar and ive been playing again

*whats this?* im tapping into my artistic side, the one that ive always wanted to use
but noooo, i had to choose the logical side years ago----

Xoxo



malapit na summer shin! there are alot of things coming up, new adventures
and i havent even posted the other things ive done haha, katamad eh, parang normal na
may thing ako everyday as gonzalo puts it

somethings ive come across that ive managed to save/write on my phone


"I like re-reading the same books or movies, it tells you something different and new everytime you read it again"
-april definitely maybe


sometimes you think you lost something, only to find it right under your nose or somewhere near to you all that time
-me (josemaria)


the human heart has hidden treasures.. show your love etc... (incomplete)
-april's dad (ill look for the complete dedication)


and no ones inlove with you
-unknown


"Forget about the real deal you dont find it, it finds you"
-April definitely maybe


cultivate your curiosity
-rose


I dont know and I dont know how to know
-forgot


I've always known that i can take care of myself pretty well, but ive yet to meet one who can prove to me that i cant
-realization / -read or heard from it many times


-josemaria

Have you made it there or are you having delusions of grandeur?
-jig (something i realized when i was in a social event, why am i not socializing with other people, do i think them as not equal to me, or am i having delusions of IM THERE at the top already.. I made it there.. etc.)

What happend to working it out? I cant sleep through the pain anymore.
-jig (fuck my x's haha!)

Your not trusting your heart to anyone
-realiztion-and to C.

*OHH I LIKE THIS ONE*

- MENTAL NOTE - (RECIPE)
2 shots of bacardi 151 = SUPER DRUNKNESS

IT WAS NEVER ABOUT THE GAME WE PLAYED, I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME
-I MISS YOU, come back na!


As many times as i blink, ill think of you tonight
-line from a song i heard

-josemaria-

I have to memorize this for legal ethics class

ANIMO SAN BEDA, The Red Lions played well, they have our love and loyalty
The Red and the White colors true it is you we defend
We Red Lions fight for our name and for ever lasting fame





i was with jared, my long time barkada since gradeschool

NOTE: my birthday was on august 9, this is a back entry


CIRCA, for the lamest birthday i ever had, i turned 21 here and i was kind of at war with my parents..

I'm sorry to those i failed to invite but i promise to make it up to you guys


this is how it looks like without flash









end of fail night haha, was too-drunk again..!

there are alot of things i havent posted yet here in my journal




thad and debbie getting dressed




i think i was crushing on that guy, there were a few of em lang eh

















i miss you debbie!

focus
fo.cus (obj)

To focus (up)on something or someone is to direct your attention to it.

now i need to focus on:

1. Studies
2. Faith
3. Body Building
4. Literature & Arts
...
......
........
9,786,765,238. Friends
9,786,765,239. Partying
9,786,765,240. Relationships

I can see myself in a coffee shop surrounded by dorks/geeks studying for the same exam or subject for a recitation with bully attorneys, i can see myself falling in line to the xerox ladies for scra papers and i can smell the sweet sensation of getting an A at recitations or exams and turning your back to everyone and whispering "Fuck You Bitches!" haha!

things i look forward to:

1. INTRAMS, i cant wait to play soccer again
2. Allowance haha
3. stimulating my mind
4. winter clothes/fall clothes
5. pasukah with arts
6. well christmas itself i guess?
7. beach opportunity8. hs reunion? or maybe not nagsasawa na din ako sakanila eh haha


things im not looking forward to:

- 6 major law subjects
- strategic management subject
- bus plan
- seeing prof piscos' butt ugly face/personality
- other negativity (insert here)
- haha

While I was reading my morning paper today, I read this article of things I wont be missing about my 20s
by Celine R. Lopez, from coffee to cocktails.. and i just felt that i had to write my own "Things I won't be missing about my Teen years"

When I was twelve, I couldn't wait to be a teenager, seeing those movies about how fun high school and college could be, couldn't wait to hit the clubs and be in the scene, go out to parties know party people and dance to the beats of frequency manila, and manila's hottest and great performing djs, go to roadtrips with barkadas and other things i could imagine, ever got that feeling that you wanted to be at a certain age, and stay there for as long as possible? haha.. Now, fastforward, i turned 18 got into clubs and found out it was a bit overrated, yes at first it was awesome, then it gets plain booring, deafening, stressing and i dont know other stuff haha, I'd go out of a club and findout the sun is frikking shinning outside already, which is a problem for me, since i only snuck out haha, and id sneak back in at home, hiding in the garage one time waiting for mom to finish her breakfast so i could sneak in my room, take a shower, as if nothing happend haha, i can remember that all too well because on that same day during dinner she told me "Para kang gagu.. Haha, You think I didn't know you were hiding at the garage, haha! where did you go?" from yacht parties to concerts to art exhibits and previews to fashion shows, political campaigns, community involvement, hangouts with buddies, you name it ive done it. haha, going through highschool and college, i did pretty awesome and stupid things at the same time, from pranking most of my friends to putting batchmates under a table and bullying alot of batchmates haha, danng I was a pretty messed up guy that you wouldnt want to piss off..

anyway, i turned 21 two months ago, ever since my birthday things just felt better, at 21, life is just about to begin and innocence is about to end. I can already say I've been there done that-overrated =) When you hit your 20s your heart doesn't break as much. I now see things that are no longer novel but change your life forever. You start to see your parents as your friends. You see your friends as your family, I'm changing for the better and also for the worst. things unravel at the most hysteric pace. everythings wonderful haha,

now for my own "Things I wont miss about my teen years"

I. frenemies
Alot of people were bitches and assholes and dare i say inspired by the cruel intentions movies haha, myself included

II. club life-overpartying-night life
it just has to go, im jaded already, same things happen anyway
[not that im totally swearing off, but im definitely lessening it, haha, biglang bawi eh?!hahaha]

III. flings totally overrated

IV. doubts

V teen angst, horrible poisonous teen angst

VI. terrible cliches of having to be on the scene all the time

VII. fighting the stupid fight

I was focused on pretty shallow things before, makes me wonder I could have stayed in the varsity football team and i could still be playing soccer instead of frikking being idle sometimes, I could have learned a musical instrument, i bought a guitar bought im noobb hahaha, I could have stayed at the debating team, (ew im a nerd..well not really lols) I could have developed my artistic side, painted and sketched, I could have continued being a student leader in school, I could have stayed in the YFC and participate in international events, and alot of i could haves, but instead i just gave the said activities my attention for a short while.. But then again I could still do these stuff, Its never too late right?
now i know what to focus on, building myself up, in the arts side to the physical attributes to studying more, hurraahh for 'Focus'. lols I always had this attributes or sides but i thought it wasnt a cool thing to focus on, gah haha

to my friends&batchmates: i hope youre experiencing this too, life is just starting for us =)

If you cant relate, that means YOU HAVENT MATURED YET! HAHAHAHA, Sucks to be you =)
and i encourage you guys to make yer own like this, and i hope i inspired a few souls

too afraid to close our eyes, afraid that we might drift and loose track of the world, a briliant light, blanks my blind, sends ghosts back to their graves and us back to life.

So long as men can see or eyes can read

So long live this and this gives life to thee

-          William Shakespeare Sonnet 116 couplet

 

| CUISINE  THE FORT  FRIDAY NIGHT  10PM |

It was one of those evenings that he wished he was in a place and situation that was better than where he is now but there’s nothing he can do because what he wanted to do required someone to be with, “Dang I’m getting tired of this clubbing scene, How I’d wish I was with someone driving to the beach or to Tagaytay with someone and just enjoy the road trip, drive till you loose the road, or break with the ones you follow, a line he remembered from The Fray’s How to save a life song..” “It’s always the same going out try to appreciate the music and be with good company get drunk and go home wasted routine” He was joined by Aton Mercado, Arts Serrano, Paolo Raoyo, Micha Garcia and Rb Barbaso, The Bored Crew doing what they often when they’re bored, a Saturday ritual partying in Cuisine at Fort Bonifacio’s The Fort Strip..

“The music is great yeah?!” Anton Mercado mused, “Yeah, where else can you hear alternative songs that are remixed into club music” Referring to what he heard on one of his clubbing moments where he heard a club remix of Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, they play Jazz Bossanova, Acid-Jazz with a feel of Club-ish something to it. But there was something bothering Jiggy lately, Have you ever been in a situation that you just found yourself staring blankly into oblivion with a sad piano melody playing in your head? Despite the fact that you’re in a club with thumpa-thumpa or thud-thud music playing? “Ah not tonight, I’ll do whatever it takes to enjoy this night, who knows maybe I’ll be lucky tonight and get some action and meet someone” Jiggy mused  Following Micha’s lead they all paraded to Embassy Fly, walking straight in ignoring the line, the perks of being VVIP, “I find it ridiculous to fall in a very long line just to get in a place to dance?” Jiggy said, “Who cares they’re a bunch of losers haha! Let’s go!” so the night went on, “We study Hard, but we partey harder”

| HOME, JIGGY’s ROOM |

Jiggy woke up feeling incredibly refreshed feeling 5 years younger and 5 years happier, He got up and went on to his morning rituals, standing by the window sipping from his home brewed coffee and smoking a Marlboro lights cigarette. “I got to quit smoking before it takes it toll on me””I miss playing soccer, I remember I could play for a whole day, now I can only play for 5 minutes on a smaller field” He thought. He looked into his room, a warm place it is, the walls were adorned with pictures from magazines cut neatly to for a collage of sights and places He wanted to visit and Hung paintings he himself painted, being an art enthusiast, on the left side of his room, there was a guitar rarely used, “When will I ever learn to play that instrument ..” There was bonsais and a collection of soccer balls, a simple desk that held his favorite books like 100 years of solitude, Artemis Fowl Books, The Good Earth and others and of course his computer and assorted gadgetry,

“I feel like going to Greenbelt and maybe watch the world go by and just wander through Makati, it is after all a nice day, The sky is blue, the clouds are high up and its not that hot, a perfect day to stroll..” The adventurist side inside him was desperately trying to surface and take a hold a hold of him..

| Greenbelt, 4PM |

Jiggy was walking through Greenbelt 5 admiring the sights and view of a sophisticated mall complex, “Nature was incorporated in this place very well, how lovely” He thought, Then his phone rings and as he looked to see who the caller was, he became excited and smiled while answering the call. “Hey Marl! What’s up,” “Hey Jigs, where are you, lets hangout” “Huh? Aren’t you were away with your family, I saw your sister’s picture in facebook, they’re touring Europe” “Yeah, I was able to give them the slip and stay here, Michelle is skiing in Italy right now, And my parents are in Rome, anyway so what do you say to hanging out?” “sure why not I’m in Greenbelt right now” “Cool, Lets meet up” “All right Lets meet at our spot.” “Okay great!“ I hear him say with a enthusiastic voice and He hung up.

I sit in a bench in front of via mare, the same place where I first met him, and i see him walking towards me coming from Greenbelt 4, and as i see him, my cheeks begin to fluster as I behold a youth of stunning innocence with a boyish look to match, and i hold his hand and kiss him on his cheeks, and i walk along. we walk around looking at the sights, we eat ice cream and talk beside the Sto. Nino church, we watch a movie and play at timezone, we break bread and eat and in recipes Greenbelt 3, his favorite resto and order the general's chicken, tofu and fried rice then we strall around greenbelt 5,

I miss you bubu, how've you been? I feel like I havent seen you in years, and theres this funny feeling in my mind that it has been years, what have you been upto. I say, and he just smiles.. we kiss, a kiss of brilliance that it blows my mind away, a kiss that i feel that as if my being is joined by half of myself that i've lost that i'm now joining with. Then He breaks the kiss and I suddenly feel in terrible pain, a pain that unbearable i can barely stand up, I look to Marly for support but he just looks at me with a smile, though clearly I can see its a sad smile, I tried to say something but he cuts me off, and says, "You have to go back now, tell my parents i love them, tell everyone i love and miss then and that i will see them soon."  and with his words I fall down unconcious.

| ST. LUKES, SATURDAY 11PM |
I wake up into this bright room, and Owwww! BAM i feel like I've been hit by a bus, like my whole body's wrecked, and to my left, I see my mother and she smiles, a worried smile, "You got into a car accident, your cars totally wrecked, you were driving drunk, yet again, I told you one day you'd get into an accident. and now you did. How could you be so irresponsible Josemaria." I begin to cry and i apologize, this isnt the first time i blew it bigtime. "Rest now."

| HERITAGE PARK, 3 MONTHS LATER |

Im smoking infront of a familiar place, a place i visited alot of times already, a place i visited daily at a time, then weekly, then monthly, then once in a while.. I look to where You are and I say out loud, Hello Marlon, how have you been, "Am i dreaming right now, will I wake up?" im mummblinb my words now, not able to stop myself from crying, "It felt so real, your kiss, your hand, the time i spent, if youre there, then how can what i felt been real?, I miss you, I miss you everyday, You were my world, and my whole world used to fit inside my arms." I bend down and i kiss my hands and press it hard against the marker, and i turn my back and catch a glimpse of that place and i whisper "Rest well bubu, I love You."

HELLO VINCE XP

Im wondering how froilan is doing so far

Hes one of the closest friend i have from HS, even upto college we still remained close, but recently I havent been hearing anything from him, and so does our other friends, namely guido, jr recalde and so on, Froi! you are the person i tell all my stories and secrets to, its hard not having to deposit it to you! haha. Youre the one who gave the best advice, I just hope youre okay. and wish u the best old friend =)

This is something i recalled to have read a long time ago, probably 3 years at most

"In an actual litigation in the Regional Trial Court, Mike Arroyo, defendant vs. People of the Phils. plaintiff"

Prosecutor:         [ was continuously bombarding the FG with questions regarding certain scandals and issues]

Mike Arroyo FG: [ pissed off at the prosecutor who apparently is not afraid of him. and at his continuous persistence]

Mike Arroyo FG:   "Why don't we settle this outside, Like real men" (apparently, this meant he was inviting the Prosecutor to a fight IN COURT )

Prosecutor:          [ Talking to the Judge ] "Your Honor, I would Oblige the FG, I MOVE FOR A RECESS"

Judge:                "Order, I will not tolerate this Mockery of the Judicial Process"

- - - - -

ANYWAY ang gusto ko sabihin, MR PROSECUTOR, YOU ARE SO FUCKING COOL! ANGAS!!!!!
" Your Honor, I would Oblige the First Gentleman, I move for a recess!"

haha!

-josemaria

I have been idle for the longest time now, most of my, like early this morning i was answering a 5 start sudoku puzzle and halfway through solving the puzzle i realize i had 2 mistakes already, (even my writing sucks). Its true what a friend said that, its hard to keep a mind functioning efficiently and effective, so i must write as often as I can to make the Juices flow once more,

Today is Monday, 2:53 am, Im leaving for Palawan, Cagayan de Oro, Boracay(on holy week), and possibly Dipolog,(Not in any particular order though, and i wont be coming back to manila till before may 7 or till Gonz's Bday, btw im sorry Guzz, i wont be here on the 16th of March, You should have told me earlier when your birthday was so i could have adjusted my flight. ) I'll be helping out with my cousins wedding of which i did not volunteer to do stuff for, and to my utter shock I would have to entertain most of guest. haha- baka utuin ko lang sila.

Lately, I  Ihave been bugged by alot of people asking and telling me what the hell am i doing with my life right now, i encountered my Prof. in Ethics and Legal Forms Atty. Deleon at eastwood, asked me the same question what have i been doing, why did i file a leave of absence, to set the record straight once and for all. had to fucking take care of my dad and siblings when dad got a bypass surgey. FAMILY FIRST. =)

Books books books, I wonder when Christopher Paolini and Eoin Colfer would finish writing their other books, Note: im not much into novels, but im into fantasy, i tried asking myself why so? maybe im fascinated with, what could be, than what is real or what happend - go figure.

To all of my hs-friends who are now in Law Proper, BREAK A LEG! PRAY HARD but STUDY the HARDEST! haha
-josemaria


ooh yeah, damn i really have to get my Life back on track at fast paced, i cant wait to get into law proper, but i cant fucking believe that a prelaw student is tutoring law proper students, namely, myself to my friends, haha!

love yah guys!
-jig
 

i was surfing the net yesterday and i was trying to access my old blog, to my utter shock, blogspot deleted my account, 2 years of entries about my life and it just makes me wanna )(*&^%%&*( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but on the brighter side, i feel as if I've finally made peace with all the negativity or hangups ive had, and that ive posted on that blog, blogspot deleting my blog turned out to be a good thing. now its really time for me to move =)

FROILAN !!! buzz me comeon ! lol i havent seen you in nearly 3 or 4 years, and i havent chatted with u in like months already =)
comeon, dont make me call ur house, hahaha tc my friend.

wahahhaha, GOODMORNING




-morning rituals-


visiting a friend


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wahahaha, karel has a reporting to sir terror, she was on panic mode


jr is gonna die


headless, rv, jacq, faceless


-haha, end of the day-

*i just noticed my face keeps on changing
and yeah i took off my longsleeves after class









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I dropped by at my old house.. to take pics of this part of my wall inside my old room









-miss the old days, but i can't go back to them.-

-this ones from my bathroom-




Quotes from my bathroom:
I.     If people talk about you negatively, live in such a way that people wont believe them
        (though id rather kill them, the world would be better off without those i dislike.)
II.   All the water in the world cannot sink a ship unless it gets in, Likewise all the pressure in the world will       not hurt you, unless you let it in.
III.   Today's Your last day - So Live every minute of it as if it were your last
IV.   Image what you could have don if you weren't afraid.

THE FIRST TIME in a long time that i havent played tennis, the person who taught me how to play was my grandfather, and i miss you lolo! =)








   



*hihi so thats my morning and afternoon doings for today

 weird that when im not infront of my computer, i think of alot of things to say that should be placed here, ahh magkkwento nalang ako

dear jiggy

i met somebody who i liked weeks and weeks ago, ive always known before that people generally go for the ones they like, over the ones who like them, even though its ideal, it has never been really followed. why the fuck am i bitter and or sad. I feel i was played at, even though i saw it coming already i didnt bail out on it, and now im pathetic. funny cos i felt sometimes that he was just using me for aliw, and parang doormat lang ako,pero i choose to ignore those signs and pre-somethings-nitions siguro, in hopes of what? holding hands with him? UGH! and i am really pathetic now what im doing this, i just hate myself, why do i cry, and the only times he really liked me where the times he wasnt sober, and that fucking hurts!!! youre so full of bullshit, well this is my domain so i might aswell write on it what i want. since it is MINE ugh, i hate you!- at yan lang ang masabi ko sakanya? tang ina. bakit mo ba kasi to ginagawa, cant you just like be nice and fair, but you arent, and you enjoy guys chasing after you. and youre enjoying me chasing after you! am i youre mere amusement? ttext mo lang ako pag wala kang magawa o gusto mo ng may naghahabol sayo. fuck.

AGH! KUDOS TO MY FRIEND ARTS:

Angelo Ray: naiinis ako
Angelo Ray: sa ibang may relationship
Angelo Ray: na tinatake for granted yung chance
Angelo Ray: na magkasama sila lage
Angelo Ray: kase di nila na aappreciate every second
Angelo Ray: na kasama nila ung tao.

i wonder how marlon is, i shouldnt miss you, and i hope youre happy always, i know everybody loves you and everybody will always love you.

this was written to make you feel smitten with my sad picture of boy getting bitter, Oh can you extract me from my plastic fantasy?
i didn't think so but i'm still convencinble will you persist even after i bet you a billion dollars that i'll never love you? and will you persist even after i kiss you goodbye for the last time.

I HATE YOU! I FUCKING DO!

***JIGGY WILL DISAPPEAR FOR 10 DAYS OR EVEN MORE, OR SO LONG AS I FEEL LIKE HIDING FROM EVERYBODY***

  

hey guys, ill be gone for 3 days, ill be participating in a school retreat, but believe me, if i could have ditched this even i would have..
RB: hey wolfie, how are yah? didnt catch you online these days, ill try to text you this morning, anyway, wondering how the wolf is XD *i'll try to get you drunk again, the third *try na to..
ARTS: hoy beaver, salamat! hehe =) thankyou artsy, umm, i dunno what to say sayo, do well sa plates! hahaha
PAO: BESTFRIEND! OTTER! ay nako, tama na mga dates and landian mo with ur guys in ateneo, or well whereever XD
HARRY: hmm, sop ka ng sop, kawawa naman telepono nyo.. hahahaha
MICHA: zomg micha! like iknowright? hahaha
THAD: hmm, di mo naman to mababasa eh kasi di mo alam site ko, but in anycase if you do know about my page, hmm, im tampo at you. haha.

and to james: hey, have fun while im gone okay? being away for 3 days, not being able to text you would surely kill me, but look on the bright side, ill have this weird church activities to do, and youll have your friends and tapsi to go to.. lol *I'll miss you for 3 days fuck! *nag 5 days unli pa naman ako! LUGI! hahahha

love you all !!!

-josemaria-

	MON	TUES	WED	THURS	FRI	SAT
9:00 - 10:00 AM			-REST DAY-	Benedictine studies
10:00 - 10:30 AM			- - -
10:30 - 12:00 N	Strategic Management		- - -	Strategic Management		Fiscal Studies
12:00 - 1:30 PM	Art Ap	Business Planning	- - -	Art Ap	Business Planning	Fiscal Studies
1:30 - 3:00 PM	-break-	World Literature	- - -	-break-	World Literature	Bus & Legal Ethics
3:00 - 4:30 PM	-break-	-break-	- - -	-break-	-break-	Bus & Legal Ethics
4:30 - 6:00 PM	-break-	Political Sciene	- - -	-break-	Political Science
6:00 - 7:30 PM	Banking Laws		-STUDY DAY-	Banking Laws

YOURE SO ALIW

haha, *im drowsy, sleepy but i still wanted to post this, i had no money with me, i searched all over my house for money and found 200, so i went o uste to see you, and i walked from lrt2 legarda station to wherever ust is. and, i dunno, i was so glad to see you again and you made me wait for 45 minutes outside room 290, but it was well worth the wait you know, =) and ugh, ewan ko ba, these 2 days with you have been really breath taking, belat ka belat! you got me drunk at that tapsi place, and we stayed at your best friend's place and er, well the rest is ours. ya know, I can't put into words how i feel meeting you and being with you for these 2 days, 2 days palang! it scares me that we might be a distraction to both our studies. but, what more can i say, monkeh! haha erm,

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

 

concious astral travelling

I was talking with Dan, And he suggested that, If I wanted more insights, I try Astral Travelling, the concious separation of your mind or soul from your body to venture out, and reach spaces, dimensions where only the mind or the soul can reach. and he did say that astral travelling is dangerous for, the connection of the body, the soul/mind is verry fine, and can easily break, so for that I say, Curiosity opened Pandora's and Curiosity will kill Me, haha, though Pandora's Box let out Hope, So I can Hope that My Questions will be answered.


Acc to Sites, in order to achieve astral travelling one should
(http://www.thiaoouba.com/astr.htm)

I. Restoring Perfect Health (important condition, freeing resources of the mind/consciousness from attending emergencies arising in your physical body etc..) This is best achieved by full physical detoxifcation and mind/thought control
II.Pure intentions - not harming anyone and anything, unconditional ACCEPTANCE of everyone else, full forgiveness for other people's mistakes. Note that people make mistakes and hurt others simply because their awareness and understanding are limited . Ask yourself: "Can you blame a baby that he/she hasn't yet learnt to walk?" and consider those who choose to hurt you like babies. This frees enormous resources from the mind which are otherwise blocked with clutter.
III.Vegan diet (important condition, that seems to free resources of the mind/consciousness from unnecessary metabolism etc..) Eating little, drinking PURE water, NO dinners. Since most of the astral travel happens at night we need every resource from our mind. Metabolising food seems to take a lot of conscious resources from the mind. Please pay attention to how tired you typically feel after a BIG dinner and/or overeating. This is your consciousness communicating to you that you messed up enough and it is the time for you to sleep/rest, so that metabolising the overload can begin WITHOUT you disturbing it.

IV. Meditation
V.Matching Surrounding colors with colors of your aura - to stimulate your senses and abilities, seems to give your mind greater control over your body.

All I can say really is, Goodluck haha, im going to throw a party when I accomplish Concious Astral Travelling